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Title:	Thinspire
Date:	2008-04-26 @ 13:37
Security:	public
Mood:	annoyed

It has been so long since i've been on here.
omg.
wow.
I think the last time i got on here was in '06.
dangggg
well, thats something thats going to change.
I'm going to use this site for all of my thoughts and everything because i cant just post it anywhere.
I dont want them to know im at anamia again.
I need this.
I really really need this.
I want my old body back.

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Title:	Untitled
Date:	2006-12-09 @ 04:42
Security:	public

10 days until my birthday and 2 left of school, 17 until christmas...goshers im excited!!!!

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Title:	The Wisdom Always Chooses...These Black Eyes And These Bruises...
Date:	2006-11-19 @ 02:01
Security:	public
Location:	My Room
Music:	Relient K
Mood:	worried

Well Last night was a bad night, i just told Daniel about it-

Last night at like 11ish my friend Heather that i've known for a very long time called me and she was upset...her parents are fighting and her dad came into her room and yelled at her for no reason and she told me that while he was yelling she just sat there because she didnt know what to say, he was apparently yelling at her for no reason and then she just turned her head and he got in her face and pushed her against the wall and literally put his hands on her neck and choked her, when he let her go, she screamed "you choked me" and he got all mad and everything and then she tried to get up to tell her mom and then he pushed her back down and then she got up again and he tried to push her again and she pushed him back and hit him and ran to her mom...and her parents were fighting again and she told me that he called her two faced a back stabber and a bitch

Guess what...I dont have a friend named Heather... i wish i had someone to talk to...like nevermind...

But on a good note...today i was at walmart and i got the fold edition of Two Lefts Dont Make A Right...it was just released, i thought that was cool.

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Title:	Why Burn Poor and Lonely
Date:	2006-11-17 @ 21:26
Security:	public
Location:	My Room
Music:	Nothing
Mood:	annoyed

I'm fighting with him...and he just now figures that out after school...he pissed me off really bad last night...and im getting to the point to where i just am annoyed by his presence and i cant stand to look at him...he is sooo irritating...but he pretty much put me down last night because im all into school and extra currics...jerkoff. Thats a part of me, so he can just get over himself...ugh. and you know what i bet almost anything that when he finds out why i'm mad he'll act like he never said any of it. Well thats something i wont forget. UGH!

I'm joining the golf team, and i'll probably Letter in that. I dont want to wait until my senior year to letter in HST...thats too much of a wait.

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Title:	Untitled
Date:	2006-11-17 @ 03:11
Security:	public
Location:	My Room
Music:	Jessica Simpson
Mood:	content

So im pissed at Kayla...shes been being exremely rude and selfish here lately, and its really frustrating because shes my best friend, you know. I've known her forever and shes never been a back stabber like other people can tend to be...its just irritating.

Tonight i had to goto a NTHS (National Technical Honor Society) meeting...it was interesting...and its a really good program, im glad i met the requirements for it, because not many people do, there was probably 30 people at the meeting, and this is out of the whole school. Its pretty cool.

Today during Mr. Hollands test Mrs. Roberts came to find me to tell me that the scolarship contest i won, the people that threw the contest are having a banquet in March, and i have to read my speech...i got out of reading it in front of the whole school...but i have to do it here...idk how im going to pull that one off.

TGTF (thank god tomorrows friday, lol)

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Title:	he's got a masters in personality straight a's in smiles & a PHD in breaking hearts </3
Date:	2006-11-15 @ 21:24
Security:	public
Location:	My room
Mood:	confused

Soooo ok...i went to the movies the other day...with Chris...i dont know what i was thinking...that was really dumb of me. I dont know what i was thinking...well ok...i knew what i was thinking, but still...gah...i'm stupid...no wait...i'm human.

I think that im actually moving on and past all of this crap and then it all starts up again, because of the little thing that happened at the movies...because i let it happen like an idiot...i really just want to slap myself right now.

But i mean...idk, i'm trying to be friends with him, i dont want any enemies this year, but sometimes he just makes it soooo difficult....

And then Saturday night after the movies I came home and talked to Daniel again...and i told Sean that i just wanted to be friends with him...i was doing the right thing, but that blew up in my face once again...urrrr i hate this.

And i just really want to know what Daniel really really feels about me...because i know what i feel for him...i just...idk.

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Title:	Their Love Brought Down A Nation
Date:	2006-10-29 @ 15:41
Security:	public
Location:	My Room
Music:	Hinder
Mood:	cheerful

Sooooo last night was the Halloween party, it was alot of fun, i havent laughed that hard in ages, i really needed that, so that was great, everyone loved my costume, i was an angel, lol...a super hawt one at that. It took forever getting all the food ready yesterday, i hated doing that....but it was all worth it. And all this week the towns been getting ready for the Rice Festival...that was a rip off, i shouldn't have even gone to the fair! I went with Leanne...she doesnt like heights so she didnt want to ride the Ferris Wheel with me, thats the only ride that i could have probably rode, because half of the rides were for little kids or they took you in circles, and i cant go in circles, if i do, i puke...thats not a pretty site. But yah...I LOVE the Ferris Wheel, and i didnt get to ride it, :(.

The Parade was pretty good though, it was alot longer than last years but i definatly like the Christmas Parade the Best...

The Blackcats won their first game for the Season Friday...the game was actually on Thursday, but it got rescheduled for Friday at 2 because of bad weather in Katy...and that meant the rest of the School got out at 12:30...that was awesome!!! It got me out of a Bio test that i didnt study for, and that reminds me, i've got homework...that i dont want to to...

I love it when we fall back an hour, i got an extra hour of sleep this morning, it was nice, so im no longer exhausted from my lack of sleep for the entire week, it was reallly nice.

Audios!

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Title:	I Hope You Find This Gift...
Date:	2006-10-25 @ 23:01
Security:	public
Location:	My Room
Music:	Relient K
Mood:	annoyed

Gah, im really mad, you know what, i've been mad all frikin week, so im just grumpy, and i'm being grumpy to people i dont want to be grumpy at, because im not mad at them, but i am mad, so i'm grumpy to everyone, im getting mad at myself for being mad...if that makes any sense at all. So let me explain my extreme madness...so Saturday night i went to a party, and my stupid cousin that i sometimes wish i wasnt related to, comes up to me and talks me into meeting her friend, he wants to meet a girl, because he wants a girlfriend...i didnt want to, but i had nothing else better to do, so i met him, he was nice, we exchanged a total of maybe 5 words , maybe. So then i just got over it, there was nothing that was going to happen between us, he's 19, im not even 16 yet, and i just wasn't attracted to him at all...well then the weekend goes by, and i had to already turn him down for lunch on Sunday, i said i had to goto church, which in all honesty i thought we were going to go, but we didnt, so i got out of that...and then Monday comes, and that night im eating dinner, and my phone rings...its him...my DA cousin gave him my phone number, i was pissed....she had no right to do that, she didnt even ask me, she just did it, and he left me a message saying he wanted to see if i wanted to goto the movies and dinner sometime...and i feel bad because its not his fault, i understand that hes looking for a girlfriend, and im sure that he'll make some girl very happy, but that girl is not me...i didnt call him back...

So the next day i was mad at her; then the bitch frikin TRIPS me going up the stairs, i was beyond pissed when that happened, i turned around and just told her ass off...so i've been in a bad mood ever since that happened...it just makes me mad...she acts like some kind of godess and nobody says anything when she screws up, and she does it alot, shes just so god damn perfect to everyone; and im fucking tired of it....and i've been cussing alot...and i dont do that...i am sooo mad!!!!!

And besides that i've been working soo much this week, i've written two speeches...one i entered into a scholarship contest, i was the only one from our school to enter i think, so i have a high chance of winning, mrs. roberts liked my speech...so idk whats going to happen with that...and progress reports come out tomorrow, im really stressed...and i've barely gotten any sleep this week...i really need some sleep, im sooo tired.

-B

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Title:	Old Habits Die Hard Holding On...
Date:	2006-10-21 @ 10:17
Security:	public
Location:	My Room
Music:	My Girls Ex-Boyfriend
Mood:	determined

Well i've got to make this update short...im about to go out and help decorate our yard for the Halloween party next week, yah...idk. So last night i went to the Ricebird game, they're our biggest rival, and we LOST first time in i think 7 years!!!! the score was 42-20, and BC would have had the first touchdown but the refs didnt let that happen for some reason, idk, i'll find out on Monday, because that sucks losing to them, but i have to hand it to them, they were good.

Old habits die hard, eh? most of you wont get that, but yah...if you get it, yah...i know, i shouldn't but i am, and its not even that bad, i have to do it, so yah...and i say yah alot, i know. Anywho....i havent been upto much of anything, yesterday i came home and slept, we got out of school early because of the Pep Rally, i never goto those, they're not that great, i might goto one next year, but idk...I've got exactly 1 month 3 weeks and 3 days until my birthday, and i am sooooooooooo excited, i'll legally be able to drive without my mom in my car with me, i can't wait...well i've got to go. Audios!

B

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Title:	Coleslaw....whose coleslaw?
Date:	2006-10-18 @ 20:42
Security:	public
Location:	My Room
Music:	Mandy Moore- Cry
Mood:	sleepy

gah...im sooo tired and drained from the PSATS today...i just want to goto sleep, but i cant because i've got to be back up at the school for a Stu. Co. meeting, and then i've got church...and i havent been in a while, so i better go. but yah...the test was actually alot easier than i was expecting, the english was not that great for me, but i've never been hawt with english, the math was easy, but i wasnt expecting it to be hard, im just glad i'm done with that.

So last night i crammed my ASS for a test we were supposed to have in W. History....Mr. Holland decides not to give it, but he had good reasons for not giving it, so i understand why he didnt give it, but gah...i didnt goto bed until after midnight because i was studying for that test, o well i have more time to study for it now, because tomorrow and friday we've got aptitude tests or w.e they're called in that class, so we're not having it until next wedesnday...yah...im tired...

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