This Is Me

Thinspire

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 18:39:12 GMT

It has been so long since i've been on here.
omg.
wow.
I think the last time i got on here was in '06.
dangggg
well, thats something thats going to change.
I'm going to use this site for all of my thoughts and everything because i cant just post it anywhere.
I dont want them to know im at anamia again.
I need this.
I really really need this.
I want my old body back.

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 04:42:31 GMT

10 days until my birthday and 2 left of school, 17 until christmas...goshers im excited!!!!

The Wisdom Always Chooses...These Black Eyes And These Bruises...

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 02:01:36 GMT

Well Last night was a bad night, i just told Daniel about it-

Last night at like 11ish my friend Heather that i've known for a very long time called me and she was upset...her parents are fighting and her dad came into her room and yelled at her for no reason and she told me that while he was yelling she just sat there because she didnt know what to say, he was apparently yelling at her for no reason and then she just turned her head and he got in her face and pushed her against the wall and literally put his hands on her neck and choked her, when he let her go, she screamed "you choked me" and he got all mad and everything and then she tried to get up to tell her mom and then he pushed her back down and then she got up again and he tried to push her again and she pushed him back and hit him and ran to her mom...and her parents were fighting again and she told me that he called her two faced a back stabber and a bitch

Guess what...I dont have a friend named Heather... i wish i had someone to talk to...like nevermind...

But on a good note...today i was at walmart and i got the fold edition of Two Lefts Dont Make A Right...it was just released, i thought that was cool.

Why Burn Poor and Lonely

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 21:26:36 GMT

I'm fighting with him...and he just now figures that out after school...he pissed me off really bad last night...and im getting to the point to where i just am annoyed by his presence and i cant stand to look at him...he is sooo irritating...but he pretty much put me down last night because im all into school and extra currics...jerkoff. Thats a part of me, so he can just get over himself...ugh. and you know what i bet almost anything that when he finds out why i'm mad he'll act like he never said any of it. Well thats something i wont forget. UGH!

I'm joining the golf team, and i'll probably Letter in that. I dont want to wait until my senior year to letter in HST...thats too much of a wait.

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 03:11:25 GMT

So im pissed at Kayla...shes been being exremely rude and selfish here lately, and its really frustrating because shes my best friend, you know. I've known her forever and shes never been a back stabber like other people can tend to be...its just irritating.

Tonight i had to goto a NTHS (National Technical Honor Society) meeting...it was interesting...and its a really good program, im glad i met the requirements for it, because not many people do, there was probably 30 people at the meeting, and this is out of the whole school. Its pretty cool.

Today during Mr. Hollands test Mrs. Roberts came to find me to tell me that the scolarship contest i won, the people that threw the contest are having a banquet in March, and i have to read my speech...i got out of reading it in front of the whole school...but i have to do it here...idk how im going to pull that one off.

TGTF (thank god tomorrows friday, lol)

he's got a masters in personality straight a's in smiles & a PHD in breaking hearts </3

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 21:24:26 GMT

Soooo ok...i went to the movies the other day...with Chris...i dont know what i was thinking...that was really dumb of me. I dont know what i was thinking...well ok...i knew what i was thinking, but still...gah...i'm stupid...no wait...i'm human.

I think that im actually moving on and past all of this crap and then it all starts up again, because of the little thing that happened at the movies...because i let it happen like an idiot...i really just want to slap myself right now.

But i mean...idk, i'm trying to be friends with him, i dont want any enemies this year, but sometimes he just makes it soooo difficult....

And then Saturday night after the movies I came home and talked to Daniel again...and i told Sean that i just wanted to be friends with him...i was doing the right thing, but that blew up in my face once again...urrrr i hate this.

And i just really want to know what Daniel really really feels about me...because i know what i feel for him...i just...idk.

Their Love Brought Down A Nation

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 15:51:10 GMT

Sooooo last night was the Halloween party, it was alot of fun, i havent laughed that hard in ages, i really needed that, so that was great, everyone loved my costume, i was an angel, lol...a super hawt one at that. It took forever getting all the food ready yesterday, i hated doing that....but it was all worth it. And all this week the towns been getting ready for the Rice Festival...that was a rip off, i shouldn't have even gone to the fair! I went with Leanne...she doesnt like heights so she didnt want to ride the Ferris Wheel with me, thats the only ride that i could have probably rode, because half of the rides were for little kids or they took you in circles, and i cant go in circles, if i do, i puke...thats not a pretty site. But yah...I LOVE the Ferris Wheel, and i didnt get to ride it, :(.

The Parade was pretty good though, it was alot longer than last years but i definatly like the Christmas Parade the Best...

The Blackcats won their first game for the Season Friday...the game was actually on Thursday, but it got rescheduled for Friday at 2 because of bad weather in Katy...and that meant the rest of the School got out at 12:30...that was awesome!!! It got me out of a Bio test that i didnt study for, and that reminds me, i've got homework...that i dont want to to...

I love it when we fall back an hour, i got an extra hour of sleep this morning, it was nice, so im no longer exhausted from my lack of sleep for the entire week, it was reallly nice.

Audios!

I Hope You Find This Gift...

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 04:17:24 GMT

Gah, im really mad, you know what, i've been mad all frikin week, so im just grumpy, and i'm being grumpy to people i dont want to be grumpy at, because im not mad at them, but i am mad, so i'm grumpy to everyone, im getting mad at myself for being mad...if that makes any sense at all. So let me explain my extreme madness...so Saturday night i went to a party, and my stupid cousin that i sometimes wish i wasnt related to, comes up to me and talks me into meeting her friend, he wants to meet a girl, because he wants a girlfriend...i didnt want to, but i had nothing else better to do, so i met him, he was nice, we exchanged a total of maybe 5 words , maybe. So then i just got over it, there was nothing that was going to happen between us, he's 19, im not even 16 yet, and i just wasn't attracted to him at all...well then the weekend goes by, and i had to already turn him down for lunch on Sunday, i said i had to goto church, which in all honesty i thought we were going to go, but we didnt, so i got out of that...and then Monday comes, and that night im eating dinner, and my phone rings...its him...my DA cousin gave him my phone number, i was pissed....she had no right to do that, she didnt even ask me, she just did it, and he left me a message saying he wanted to see if i wanted to goto the movies and dinner sometime...and i feel bad because its not his fault, i understand that hes looking for a girlfriend, and im sure that he'll make some girl very happy, but that girl is not me...i didnt call him back...

So the next day i was mad at her; then the bitch frikin TRIPS me going up the stairs, i was beyond pissed when that happened, i turned around and just told her ass off...so i've been in a bad mood ever since that happened...it just makes me mad...she acts like some kind of godess and nobody says anything when she screws up, and she does it alot, shes just so god damn perfect to everyone; and im fucking tired of it....and i've been cussing alot...and i dont do that...i am sooo mad!!!!!

And besides that i've been working soo much this week, i've written two speeches...one i entered into a scholarship contest, i was the only one from our school to enter i think, so i have a high chance of winning, mrs. roberts liked my speech...so idk whats going to happen with that...and progress reports come out tomorrow, im really stressed...and i've barely gotten any sleep this week...i really need some sleep, im sooo tired.

-B

Old Habits Die Hard Holding On...

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 15:30:41 GMT

Well i've got to make this update short...im about to go out and help decorate our yard for the Halloween party next week, yah...idk. So last night i went to the Ricebird game, they're our biggest rival, and we LOST first time in i think 7 years!!!! the score was 42-20, and BC would have had the first touchdown but the refs didnt let that happen for some reason, idk, i'll find out on Monday, because that sucks losing to them, but i have to hand it to them, they were good.

Old habits die hard, eh? most of you wont get that, but yah...if you get it, yah...i know, i shouldn't but i am, and its not even that bad, i have to do it, so yah...and i say yah alot, i know. Anywho....i havent been upto much of anything, yesterday i came home and slept, we got out of school early because of the Pep Rally, i never goto those, they're not that great, i might goto one next year, but idk...I've got exactly 1 month 3 weeks and 3 days until my birthday, and i am sooooooooooo excited, i'll legally be able to drive without my mom in my car with me, i can't wait...well i've got to go. Audios!

B

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Coleslaw....whose coleslaw?

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 20:47:38 GMT

gah...im sooo tired and drained from the PSATS today...i just want to goto sleep, but i cant because i've got to be back up at the school for a Stu. Co. meeting, and then i've got church...and i havent been in a while, so i better go. but yah...the test was actually alot easier than i was expecting, the english was not that great for me, but i've never been hawt with english, the math was easy, but i wasnt expecting it to be hard, im just glad i'm done with that.

So last night i crammed my ASS for a test we were supposed to have in W. History....Mr. Holland decides not to give it, but he had good reasons for not giving it, so i understand why he didnt give it, but gah...i didnt goto bed until after midnight because i was studying for that test, o well i have more time to study for it now, because tomorrow and friday we've got aptitude tests or w.e they're called in that class, so we're not having it until next wedesnday...yah...im tired...

Where Did I Go Wrong, I Lost A Friend, Somewhere Along In The Bitterness

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 20:37:35 GMT

soooo ok its time for another update...our football team is not doing so hot at all this year, i feel bad for them...its not their fault really, but then again...idk....we lost again friday night 57-0, maybe i'll just stop going to the football games. lol, no i wont i love going to football games, they're soo much fun, even if we do lose. Not only am i still sick, but everone except for my brother is sick now, its pretty bad. i feel horrible, but it comes and goes, i wonder if i'll ever get better...probably not, knowing my luck.

Yesterday i went to kaylas, that was alot of fun, ariel and aurora went too, we watched the grudge and wolf creek, and i was sooo dissappointed in wolfe creek, the begining of the movie was sooo long, it took forever to actually get the the killings and the climax of the movie, but once it did it got good, it wasn't that bad, it just could have had a better beginning. And it was not scary...not at all. there were a few gory parts, but thats about it.

I scored this guys number last night, i dont know much about him, he sounded pretty hot, and he wants me to call him, i just dont know if i am or not...im not sure if i want to meet anyone else right now, i've got alot of good stuff going on right now...and if i meet a guy...god knows what stupid stuff i'll end up doing...theres 2 guys that i'm like crazy about...and nothing is happening with either of them...one likes me, and one liked me last year, i dont know how he feels about me now, we havent talked in a while..and that sucks.

The PSATS are wednesday...i really need to study for those...i think i'll go do that now, and of course finish up the homework that my crackhead teachers decided to give me over the weekend, i'll update again soon if i remember to, lol!!

Audios!

B

While I Whisper...Why Me

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 21:07:56 GMT

Good lord, i havent updated this thing in forever, and i didnt even realize it, Oops! But anywho...i've been sick since Sunday...its my dads fault, lol, he got sick first...and i'm got a weak immune system...so of course i caught what he had...i always do. School...well....i love it, but then again i hate it, its school. I passed all my classes the first 6 weeks, i had mostly A's, 2 B's, and one frikin C, ONE...dumb Pre-Ap Algebra II class, i got out of it...and i can honestly say that that was the dumbest thing i could have ever done...regular class is too easy for me...and Advance class isnt hard, but i dont like it, none of my friends are there and the way my teacher taught us, well she didnt really teach thats why i had a 76... but yah...i miss pre-ap, but i've got kayla, danielle, kody, and earnest in my regular class....so its all good in the hood. I have discovered that they need like a median class, one in between regular and AP classes, that would be good. And i've got exactly one week until i take the PSAT and i havent studied at all...im getting pretty nervouse about it...idk, im just glad its only a practice test, and it doesnt count against you...and plus i get out of all of my morning classes that day, so yah, i cant complain too much.

Kayla went to buzzfest last weekend, and i was supposed to go with her, since i took her with me to the Relient K concert back in march, and you know what she did, she didnt invite me, and i wanted to go sooo bad, like really bad, i was sooo pissed at her! To be honest, i still kinda am, im getting pretty good at holding grudges... and man these dumb cops at school, today the one that directs traffic really made me mad...he always makes me wait in the mornings before i can cross to walk up to the school, and then today, chels had a meeting after school so my mom had to come and get me, and well she was driving and i started walking to where she had to pick me up at, and he starts telling me to go all the way down and to not stop at the grass, and i was past the frikin grass on the concrete, and so i told him, im not frikin stupid, i know what im doing, and i kept walking, god he really makes me mad, then my mom asked me about it when i got into the car, and i told her what all i said, and then she freakin lectures me about having respect, wth, man, he was the one messing with me, how could i not stand up for myself?

Urrr...anywho...i've got nothing else to do, but im pretty much done with this update. audios!

B

"There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness."

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 23:07:26 GMT

Welll ok...i had an awesome time at the game, even if we did lose, once again... Dustin....well, he's just Dustin, we're pretty good friends now...he did try to get my # after the game, and i was kinda mean, and told him no, but if he asks again, i'll give it to him,,, we're just friends, im not really into him like that, i mean idk...lol, i just...i dont want to be into anybody right now, school is going great. And if i go crazy over someone, i'll be tooo busy thinking about them and not school, and i dont want to do that, i really want to get into NHS because im already in the Whos Who thing, and thats just awesome!!!! Score for me!!! o yah! But yah... i do like this one guy, i really shouldn't like him, its a bad idea, but i think he's into me too, so im like happy about that, but hes like 20 something, lol, i know thats crazy, so yah...i need to calm down on him, it wont work. *tear* lol, no im kidding.

Today we got out progress reports, and i had all A's in my classes except for pre ap (honors) algebra 2, and thats only because people can't grade, and i've made a few minor mistakes, but i've gotten that higher, she just hasnt entered those grades into the computer yet, and i'm trying sooo hard in that class, i want an a in there. i have a 93 in spanish class, heck yesssssss, thats a pretty easy class though, so no worries there.

Tonight is the first night i havent had a ton of homework, and i didnt get home from school today until 5 something because i stayed after for student council, and a DASH committee meeting, we made cold and flu prevention tip flyers and Kayla and I posted them all around the school, that was fun, she cannot tape anything up for nothing, shes a horrible taper, hehe.

I've got 4 tests tomorrow, 1st, 2nd, 6th, and 7th period. Thats not cool, but im not too worried about any of them except for 7th, thats Bio, and idk...i've got a 94 in that class, but im not sure how i'll do on her test, my teacher is a really bad word that i can't type. Yah, we dont get along too well.

I'm ending this here, because i want to get off of the computer.

-B

Nothings Going To Change My Ways

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 21:28:24 GMT

Welllllll

I got an explorer, my dad went up to houston last saturday and bought it from a dealership, its nice...but you know what i havent gotten to drive it yet, :(.

I'm going to the homecoming game tonight with Dustin...thats going to be akward...i dont know him that well...lol. O well, i guess i'll get to know him, hes really nice, its no big deal, and im trying to talk leanne into going too, because i've got an extra ticket that i was going to give to Taylor (shes new, i love her!!!) but shes already going with her dad...so yah..

And i spilt red jello on my pants a few seconds ago...it looks weird, lol.

I survived today without completely destroying my mum, and i only stepped on it twice. lol. It really got on my nerves though.

Leanne isnt going....dang, tonight is going to be weird....DANG. I need more friends that like football and arent in the band.

B

You And I, We Never Had It Easy Baby, We've Both Been Hurt Before

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 21:21:45 GMT

Ok....the first week of school, pretty darn good if i may say so myself. Tonight is the official Meet the teacher night, im totally going, free grades man! lol. But yah...i HATE my dad....you know what....as far as im concerned, i dont even have a dad. Hes such a jerk...you wont believe what he did yesterday, and i am not going to sit her and type it all out, but it all comes down to this, he once again hurt my brother...not just mentially or verbally, but this time physically, he didnt leave any bruises or anything, but my brother was crying, and this is all over a freaking lawn mower, a push one at that..... hes got anger problems, so anyways he got into a fight with my mom, i got into with him, he literally ripped my phone and answering machine out of the wall, so now i have no answering machine, and i have to use my corded phone again, and i have no cell phone...he kicked me out of the house, and the only reason im still here is because my mom wouldnt let me leave, i was packing, i dont want to be here, not with him here, and if this time my mom doesnt leave him, then i will...i've got friends, i can go live with them, im not going to continue to put up with this, and my mom is not right for putting up with this for this long.

Any ways...call me or something.

B

I see all the couples kissing &I say "Get A Room" But what i really want ...is to be there with You

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 21:14:36 GMT

Gosh Gosh Gosh...i seriously love school!!!! Eek! Soooo yah.... Theres a dance tonight...i will most likely not be going...its at the service center and the dances out there aren't that fun. Yesterday and Today went by so much faster than Tuesday And Wednesday....those days just seemed to drag on and on. There is football scrimmage tonight, first game of the season, the blackcats....idk...i dont know whose on the team this year so i dont know if they will win or lose...lets hope they win.

So....theres this guy...and i really like him...omg i like him alot...he's different than all the other guys...i mean...hes just respective, and not dirty, and his smile...omg....wow...gosh...lol, i really like him, can you tell? And i love it because everytime i talk to him he gets all shy around me, its really kinda cute, which makes me even more attracted to him...and no names will be mentioned, lol.

Wellllllll i've run out of things to talk about....lol.

B

I Dont Understand Why Promises Are Snapped In Two And Words Are Made To Bend- [Just Like Her]

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 21:03:25 GMT

School today was pretty good, it sucked at times but for the most part, it was great! I just hated how our joke of a principal, Mr. Wentland, or however you spell it... Changed stuff up, like our homerooms this year...we didnt goto a class, we went to first period and sat there from 7:45 until 10! That was horrible, and this way was supposed to be faster, they shouldn't have changed it. And alot of peoples schedules were messed up, it was hectic...good, but hectic. I like all of my classes execpt for biology, im getting out of that class as soon as i can...i want to actually learn this year, i dont need another science class to go like last years. And one good thing...no classes with him, SCORE! I mean, don't get me wrong, im not trying to sound all snotty and rude, but its just better this way, if we had classes together, something would happen, thats what happened last year, and this year is going to be much better than last year, and if and when i befriend people this year...im going to be much carefuler, (if thats even a word) im not going to talk to someone that is going to hit on my boyfriend and then end up backstabbing me for no reason at all...i am not perfect, i know that, but im not a bad friend, i was wayyy to nice to nickole and ashley last year, when both of them became what they're now.

But turns out that Kayla and i have lunch again, so its Aurora, Ariel, Kayla, And I all at lunch, thats sooo awesome!!!! i was sooo happy when Kayla showed up for lunch, im telling you guys right here and now, even if this is off the subject, prayer freakin works, its been proven, and not just this can be used as an example, lol, im just happy...i am in HST and i'm in Honors Math this year, its going to be great, ill be joining HOSA and Student Council, im just happy!

And man....my outfit...was great, gosh, lol, im sooo hyper, lol...i looked sooo skinny today....i definatly like this outfit....lol, i hope tomorrow is even better!

B

I'm Hoping My Dreams Bring You Close To Me; Are you listening?

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 21:35:49 GMT

Sooooo school starts tomorrow, and im sooo excited!!!!!!!! YAYAYA, lol...... Its school, i know, im a dork, but still. I'll finally have something to do. :].

I'm eating pizza, and it is so good. I havent eaten anything all day, and im starving, and completely exhausted...i cleaned the house again today for my mom, we seriously need to buy a smaller house or something...my god. And i think i sprang my left pinky finger, it hurts super bad, :[.

But yah...theres not much to say today, its been boring...my brother left at like noon to goto a friends house, and i cleaned, thats it....

oh wait...i had a heart attack last night...Chris called me...and i have discovered that its very hard to talk to him...even on the phone...not that i could acutally talk, i was busy when he called but still...i mean a whole summer has gone by and he decides to call me, now.....?!? He must have gotten me confused again with Nickole....which is hard to do..im a better person than she is....yes, i am, and i am not saying that in a conceited, OMG IM BETTER THAN EVERYBODY way, im just simply saying it like that, because thats just how it is, so everyone says...idk. But idk...i mean im not in love with him, she is, why is he calling me? All i know is that its hard to be nice to him, i mean i dont want to be rude to him, but my god...idk. This year is going to be....odd if he thinks i want to be friends with him.

-B

I Hear You Talking, Well It's My Turn Now, I'm Talking Back

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 22:24:49 GMT

So today has been so much fun, and I haven’t even done that much, I stayed up all night, and I laid down at 6:30-7 and got up at 11:30 because my phone was ringing, it was Jody. Jody and Leanne wanted me to go to the movies with them to see Step Up, since we finally got it, I’ve been dying to see this movie…seriously, and I didn’t go…I stayed home and helped my parents out in the backyard ‘construction’ area.

Well I was just sitting on the porch and letting the sun hit me, It felt good, and then my dad told me to go and get the broom and sweep all the saw dust off of the concrete, so I did…lol, and I just sorta happened to grab my MP3 player too….hehe. So I go out and I start sweeping…and I turn on my MP3 player and I started dancing and singing…my mom was laughing soo hard it was hilarious…and then a Michael Jackson song came on (the only Michael Jackson song I have, by the way) and so I threw down the broom and walked up to my mom and we started dancing, my dad just looked at us and rolled his eyes, he was trying not to laugh, and he did it very well…lol, my mom and I were cracked up by it…and then mail man was across the road, I’m sure he got a good laugh out of it too…lol. And now I’m just sort of resting Its like 100 degrees out there, I hate Texas weather, that’s the only thing I hate about Texas…

Today, I drove my brother to the Bowling Alley for Charlie’s party…and then my mom and I went to Sonic to get my dad some food, and this idiot pulls up next to us, and he like parked his truck in my lane…I had to try 3 different times to get out, it was embarrassing, but it was his fault, if you can’t park or drive, you really shouldn’t be on the road…I mean, I don’t have much experience, but I do know how to park at sonic…sheesh.

Well that’s all I’ve got to type for now, and its starting to rain again outside, i'm going to dance some more!!! I’m sure I’ll update some time soon…

Oh and btw…do you guys like my User Pic, I made it!!!!!! :]

B

She Looks To Pure To Be Pink!?!

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 07:02:18 GMT

Sooooo Its been quite a while since i've updated....i've been so busy, its unreal. And im totally in love with Grease (Once Again) I just love musicals, they're just awesome, lol. And I fell in love with this song Leanne sent me like last weekish...

Relient K- Between You And Me

Sorrow is a lonely feeling
Unsettled is a painful place
I've lived with both for far too long now
Since we've parted ways
I've been wrestling with my conscience
And I found myself to blame
If there's to be any resolution
I've got to peel my pride away

Just between you and me
I've got something to say
I wanna get it straight
Before the sun goes down
Just between you and me
Confession needs to be made
Recompense is my way to freedom now
Just between you and me
I've got something to say

If confession is the road to healing
Forgiveness is the promised land
I'm reaching out in my conviction
I'm longing to make amends
So, I'm sorry for the words I've spoken
For I've betrayed a friend
We've got a love that's worth preserving
And a bond I will defend

Just between you and me
I've got something to say
I wanna get it straight
Before the sun goes down
Just between you and me
Confession needs to be made
Recompense is my way to freedom now
Just between you and me
I've got something to say

In my pursuit of God, I thirst for holiness
As I approach the Son, I must consider this
Offenses unresolved, they'll keep me from the throne
Before I go to Him my wrong must be atoned
Just Between you and me

I’ve got something to say

I Love it....the beginning of it, its just...like inspiring...not just the lyrics, but the music, too. Yah... lol.

Anyways...school starts Tuesday, and i'm sooo excited about that, i really am i mean, i've never been this excited about school...but this year is going to be different, i mean, i'll get my license in December, im in HST....my life is starting to come together...i'm growing up, and its not as scary as it seems.

We're like remodeling our backyard, we've been doing that for the past two weeks, my dad got concrete, and he's rebuilt our porch/deck. Its looking really nice, and i got some sun the other day, and its turned into a nice tan, im hoping to improve it tomorrow, lol. And...idk...Monday and Tuesday Kayla and I hung out, she came over sunday night, well actually i went and picked her up, and she came back to my house and watched my mom dye my hair...that was an experience, lol...she took pictures... And then she talked me into watching the Hills Have Eyes, and that was one movie that i was NOT going to watch...and i love scary movies...lol that was hilarous, you guys would have been cracking up at us...we sat there and had our pillows over our mouths (and sometimes our eyes) and i screamed twice, it was seriously funy....and after it was over, i decided i liked it...it was a really good scary movie...not so much a scary movie, more like a thriller...full of suspense. And then Monday night i went over to her house and Aurora came over, and we watched Final Destination 3...that movie gave me another reason to not fake and bake...i never have...and i never will, i have no problem with being white. lol, that movie was AWESOME, so much better than the second, but none of them could top the first, and not to mention the fact that the guy in the movie was super HAWT! lol. And we just hung out and stuff...it was fun. Wednesday...i just hung around my house... trying to rest for church that night, we had a party thing for Leanne...shes officially out of the youth, and thats totally going to suck...lol, she was the only one i actually hung out with besides Cana and Jacob...and those guys are just crazy. And Then that night i went back to Leannes House...

We really didnt do much at all...Messed around on her laptop...and slept....well actually we stayed up and talked until 4. Then i had to get up at 9 to goto Lake Jackson to shop some more...and that made me mad...i had fun but after i got home, i got MAD...this is why-

We go and shop and all and i buy my first day of school outfit, i seriously fell in love with the shirt that i bought, i loved it it was adorable! And then when we drive all the way home i realized that the idiot that checked us out left the security tab on there, and when we left the store the alarms weren't set off...somethings wrong with that picture, right? Well i tried to get it off...no luck so i took it to the living to show it to my mom and she tries to get it off...she had a hard time, but she got it off...and this is where im beyond mad...the thing comes off...but it really does get ink on my shirt, and it ripped it too! so i was like....really upset, i really did like that shirt..we ended up going back to lake jackson tonight and we got another one, but they didnt have the color i wanted so i had to get a grey one, thats ok...i really did like the green one though, and the lady that was there at first was the same lady that checked us out yesterday, and she was going to just let us pick another one...and then she like goes on break or whatever and the next lady was just rude...i was MAD i mean, they messed up, and then they're going to be rude about it? URRR.

But anyways...im over it...i got a new shirt...so it all good. And yah...well my hands are hurting from typing so much, but heres another song that i'm really loving-

"I'll Take My Chances"
The Click Five

You and I
We never had it easy baby
We had to work so hard
And everytime it feels like we're gonna make it
That's when it falls apart, but

Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you
Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you

Every night I think about the mistakes I've made
I try to change my ways
(Nothing's gonna change my ways)
And I don't mind all the little games we play
And all the foolish things you say,cause

Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you
That's what I'm gonna do
Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you

Love is what you make it
So give it one more try
Cause I get turned down when you're not around
I just can't take it all

You and I
We never had it easy baby
We've both been hurt before
(Both been hurt before)
And only time will tell us if we're gonna make it
There's no way to be sure, but

Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you
That's what I'm gonna do
Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you
You know it's true

Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances with you
That's what I'm gonna do
Oooooooohoo
Baby I'll take my chances
I'll take my chances
With you

Be My Wings

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 20:29:47 GMT

Well the other day i was talking to my mom and i was telling her that we needed to buy Edward Scissorhands because its a good movie and all, and she told me we had it, and i had no idea we had Edward Scissorhands, so yesterday after i finished cleaning the house, i went and looked through both of the Movie cabinets, we have a ton a movies, and you know what....Edward Scissorhands was MIA...come to find out, we dont have it, she just thought we did. But we're going to get it, i've talked her into buying it.

Well my brother and i ended up staying up until 5, i didnt goto bed until after 6, and i woke up at 1, i havent got much sleep, but i hate sleeping in late, it just feels like your whole day has been wasted when you sleep in, at least, thats how i see it, so i got up, and took a shower...i got out and wrote. I've just posted my new poem-

http://allpoetry.com/poem/2171244

And im not sure if i like it or not...but i never like what i write so o well. Its up to the people that read it. I just won 3rd place in a contest for my poem, 'Beautiful' i didnt expect that at all...i didnt think that poem was anywhere near good enough for the contest i entered it in, but evidently the host thought otherwise....idk, she must be crazy for picking one of my poems.

I still need to blowdry my hair and all that jazz, so i think im going to go and do that now.

B

Once There Was The Sun, Bright And Warm, And Wonderful...Shining Like The Love Within My Heart.

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 06:38:07 GMT

Well so today was a really....good day i guess you could say... my poem is #3 on the most read list on AP once again, im excited about that, i met a new girl on there, shes a sweetie, i just hope i can get her to post some of her writings.

Last night i didnt goto bed until 3:30 am because my little brother and i have been playing games on his computer, (my computer doesnt want to work when it comes to any kind of games) and then today i promised i would clean the house for my mom, so i did that, and man my knees are killing me...i hate it when they do this, i wish i didnt have bad knees...but they're feeling ok...im exhausted from all of the cleaning and moving around and lack of sleep...and its already 1:30 in the morning and my little brother and i are planning on staying up all night...we plan on it, i dont know if it will happen or not...lol.

But tomorrow, i plan on working on my entry for the degrassi contest, and of course...church, what joy. I actually ran into Nettie today; i didnt say anything...i've decided not to, i'll just try not to let the guilt get to me...its not the guilt of what i did, its the guilt of lieing to so many people, i really dont like to lie...but its something i have to do.

Anywho, my mom and i watched a movie earlier tonight and it was called Finding Forrester...it was sooo good, i loved it. I reccomend that movie too, really good. And it made me want to goto a boarding school, i have the brains to do it, even though you probably couldn't tell..but yah...i told my mom, and she said no i'm not sending you off to a boarding school...and i was asking her why and all she could say is because, and i really hate it when she says because...that bugs me.

Well, i'm going to end this here, i'm going to play a game with my brother. toodles, lol. :]

B

why don`t we hit restart and pause it at our _ favorite parts.we`ll `skip xOox__*the goodbyes_''

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 19:54:15 GMT

Well this weekend was pretty good...except for the fact that my dad and i arent talking, i really do wish sometimes that my mom would divorce him, but she wont. He is a jerk 3/4 of the time he's around us...i really just...idk.

And i really don't understand Chris...he is talking to me more and more now, but i just asked him about the phone call from Will, and he claims he didnt know about it, w/e..i told him i really didnt want Will calling me so, he said hes going to delete my number from his phone...

3 guys have asked me out this week...and i really dont like the attention i have been getting from guys, i'd rather have a guy as a friend, than have him as a boyfriend...i dont want to be tied down this year unless its with a certain guy, but idk whats happening with that anymore, we haven't talked in a while...o well. We're friends, i know that much...so i guess...its ok. I dont need a guy right now, i just wish they would stop asking me out.

I think im going to re-dye my hair today, i just havent decided yet...my old brown is coming back in, and its soo light...i love the dark brown...i just can't wear black eyeliner, it looks weird with my dark hair...o well.

Love!!!

B

*EDIT*

even though were not friends anymore, im not going to be like that, its not right...and im not going to make myself a bad person because of it, thats why some of its been deleted.

you’re the reason i draw those stupid little hearts all over my paper

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 20:17:35 GMT

Well i decided i'd update since its been a while, not that anybody reads this thing, i really dont even know why i have it, i mean, sure i can type out all my feelings and all of that, but what good does writing about them do, if i'm not going to do anything about them...

So wednesday i had to go to the dentist to get my baby teeth pulled...and that sucked really bad....it took him an hour to pull two teeth, because he found bone above a tooth...and what freaked me out the most about that, was he told my mom right in fron of me that he had never seen anything like that before....scary. but he finally gets to the other tooth, and that one didnt want to come out...but the worst part about it all was the four shots in my mouth...that was painful. My mouth bled for over an hour after he was done...and its still sore today. 4 days later. but i did get my mom to watch Cabin Fever with me that day, so that was an accomplishment because my mom doesnt like to watch movies like that with me. I loved it personally, i thought it was a really good movie, it to me, wasn't fake like alot of other movies out there...but yah.

So i've been baking alot here lately, i have made snickerdoodle cookies, muffins, and peanut butter bread, it all came out good, and they taste good too, so that was a big relief for me.
Today i got my schedule in the mail for school...they put me in my dance class again, so i've got to go and have that fixed, because i can't take the same class over again...i'm getting into the accounting class to take the place of Dance. I'm actually very excited about starting school this year, it gives me something to do, because im actually getting involved this year, unlike last year...i got into the drama club, and then i got out of it...and did nothing else. This year i'm getting into Student Council and HOSA club, maybe DECA club too, if i can juggle that and a job...but the job doesnt come until the beginning of next year.
I actually want to work...i like to work...i hate being lazy, and i like money, what girl doesn't like money? so i'm excited about finally being able to get a job...lol as a cashier at the food basket, but still, its a job, and i know alot of people that work there. Leanne, Jimmy, Aaron, Megan, Taelor...alot of people.

Last night i got the weirdest phone call ever....Will calls me at like 9:45 at night wanting me to do something with him and chris...ok?!? for one thing i havent talked to chris at all during the summer, and ok, i dont mind them calling me, i really dont, what i didnt like was chris having will call, i hate will...i really dont like him, hes such a sexist pig, its unreal...but yah. I told will i didnt want to do anything with him, so he got mad and hung up on me...i dont care...i just dont understand chris, we go all summer without talking, i mean at first i hated him and i never wanted to see him again, but now i dont hate him, and hes all of a sudden talking to me and wanting to do stuff with me again, i dont understand it. A part of me still wants distace from him, but then a part of me wants to be friends, i dont know, im sure its best for both of us if we're not friends...but i dont know, its all sooo complicated.

All i know is that im ready for school to start....summer has been a drag.

B

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 17:48:01 GMT

so i didnt talk to nettie, because i didnt see nettie yesterday, because we didnt go yesterday...woohoo. But im taking that as this- i just need to keep my mouth shut...for now anyways until i've thought the whole thing out.

But yah...i went to houston yesterday, or better yet, i drove to houston yesterday, and we went shopping, and i hate my dad. The last time i counted, i have 21 or i think it was 24 shirts for school. I still have more shopping to do. lol.

Yah...im beginning to wonder on friends, i mean whats the point sometimes? Because you try to talk to people and they just tell you what you're thinking is dumb and flat out ignore you about it, but on the other hand when they do decide to tell you something, you are there for them, and you listen? Who are your friends? What is the meaning of True Friends, does it even exist, im beginning to wonder?